pERSONAL rANT
It’s 5:30 *AM* and I’ve already been up for half an hour …
.. the move .. packing .. stressing if it will actually all fit in the truck and trailer .. the heat (which fortunately broke last night) .. Zen’s unrest because she knows something is up .. the ‘should it stay or should it go’ debate as I cull thru every drawer, closet, box and bin .. shredding old bills / keeping old love letters (thanks Mary Schmich) .. budgets and bills .. knowing I’ve forgotten something and not having a clue what it is .. trying to align the 101 steps between now and the 15th .. the mess that seems to be growing all around me .. no TV / only one old radio left unpacked .. I’m already yawning ..
I realized the “No TV” decision has repercussions beyond just me. Zen watches TV (actually *watches* it) and now she is a bit lost in the evening because she wants to settle in on the comfy chair with me – that activity will likely get resurrected once I find some books I want to read in the evenings but for now, evenings are the time of “packing” and “processing” for the move.
Even with all the stress of “getting it done” I know it’s just a short term thing and then I will have a routine back. In the meantime, don’t be surprised if the blog becomes a strange surreal stomping ground of mythical theories and the ramblings of a tone deaf minstrel (sorry about that Doug).
Footnote: When I went to find Mary Schmich’s name I stumbled across Mark Ehrmann’s “Desiderata”. It has a line that has been my philosophy since arriving at college (as a matter of fact it’s probably what helped me get through college) …
.. for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
I took a bit less eloquent track (some may say more cynical one) but it serves me well for both what I achieve externally and what I strive for internally …
there will always be those further up the food chain that you and those further down the food chain than you so be happy with what you’ve got
Source: me
Hi Glen,
Thanks for this glimpse inside the maelstrom of packing up two lives, one human and one canine, and moving them to a new setting. If this is stressing you, someone who has more energy than, oh, say, 10-15 humans, it must truly be a daunting task. I’m getting tired just thinking about it.
As for being happy with what you’ve got… my daughter Kelly worked at a day care for the last two summers. As you can imagine, there was lots of competition for just the right snack, the right flavor freeze-pop, the best story at story time. Kell used to tell her kids “We get what we get and we don’t get upset.” Easier said than done with toddlers and adults alike I think.
In any case – I hope you don’t wear yourself down to a nub doing all this.
Best,
Roy.
P.S. Please give Zen a pat and tell her I said “Hi!”
thanks for the “day care” anecdote – it helps put my piddly little peeves in perspective
… and Zen is very happy when people stop to say “hi” !
Hi Glen and Roy,
Hey Roy, this is “Angel of Death” Mary (only a lot older now…). I think I’ll use “We get what we get and we don’t get upset” as my personal mantra.
Glen, I am almost certain that at some point really soon the whole thing will seem hysterically funny. Two years ago I remember thinking, “How is it possible that I’m X days away?” Then it was X hours away. Then I was there and everything worked out one way or another